Choosing No in Life

Falling for you?
Some could say that;
But I know myself,
And it's not to be.

Some could say I am pursuing you,
The way I talk, the way I think;
But I know who I am inside,
And it's not really at all as it seems.

I'll be alone my life,
No one to share it with,
For however long it is,
Just a day, or for decades.

My life isn't worth the breath it takes,
For all I do it take, but haven't given;
I used to think I gave more than take,
But maybe I suck at that too, mistaken.

Once I thought I would grow up to help people in life,
But maybe helping them would to leave them alone,
Leave them be, and me hide away to dry up alone,
Nothing to live for, nothing to gain, nothing to lose.

Thus do I think, thus do I speak,
Thus do I think I shall never seek,
Someone sweet to cherish a life with,
I know myself better than that.

Falling is for dummies,
Choosing is for smarties,
And when it comes to you and me,
I better choose no, for your sake.